My Smile Never Left Me, It was just Hiding...

I was thinking today, and it wasn't a normal day for me. Today has been so humble. It's just in the air.. it's one of those days you wanna wrap up in a big hoodie, and go home to gramma's cookin'. And I was sitting outside, no one was with me just out in Tulsa, haha. And I was thinking.. my old "smile".

Last night during my show me and Trace, my brother, gotta sing Hovering for the first time on stage. And I was thinking.. I remember singing and having the biggest, truest smile on my face. And it hit me.. I might not smile ALL THE TIME, like I did back in the day that i HAD my "smile".. but on stage, I do. I never realized that on stage, my smiles are the most real they can get. They are the truest smiles I have. So much so that I don't even realize I'm smiling half the time, my heart takes over my face, HA! ( THat's an ORIGINAL Miley quote, feel free to use. "My heart takes over my face when I smile!" - Miley Cyrus. ;) and it's just wonderful because I didn't think I had it anymore.

My truest smile, I remember back in 2007 things were perfect. PERFECT. I had everything I ever needed, I had everyone I needed, and no one hated me. There was no "Anti Miley" there was no "I HATE MILEY CYRUS" crap. There wasn't BAD rumors, there wasn't anything like that.. people actually LIKED me, HA! (Although I'm half tempted to go to Perez Hilton 2007 and check, cause I'm sure he hated me back then too!)And I smiled. I was happy ALL the time.. there was NO bringing me down. I was HAPPY.

And now I realize, when I'm on stage, I'm THAT person. My heart is back in 2007, my mind is in the music and my passion, my drive, my LOVE for life is THERE. It's on fire and it's happy and it's energy and just.. embracing me. I look out at those fans faces, and I just notice how truly blessed I am. Because I truly am. Right now... my heart is so happy. I honestly can't stop smiling. And I laugh, because those people "hating" me, obsessing, trying to make my life hell, it's funny. Because I'm still THIS happy, THIS at peace.

It's true, for a while I was living for blogs. I was living for rumors. I was living for gossip sites. ANd now I'm living for me, and it's made me my happiest. I feel like I'm in 2007 again.
No.. scratch that, I feel like I'm as happy as I used to be, but with more knowledge, more FEELING toward it. I'm HAPPY.

I want everyone to read that, understand it, and don't think it's a "mask" or whatever... I. AM. HAPPY... TRULY HAPPY.

And it's the best feeling in the WORLD. I don't even know what to type anymore because it's honestly just indescribable how happy and amazed I am at how much GOD can do for me.

I am so blessed to have the friends I have that hold my hand and stay with me so long. Mandy, Demi, Paige, Nick, Cory, Ashley T, Ashlee Nino, all of my amazing dance friends, Denika, Scott, Mitchel, just.. everyone. They're absolutely SO amazing to me and I'm just beyond blessed. Karina! Lanie! just all of them.
I don't CARE about people saying "Oh no, you're not blah blah blah", it's not true. I'm done living for people like that.

I was talking to Ash (THOM) yesterday, and we were talking about a specific person and she was like "UGH! They're SO annoying!" ( and duh I was too) and I just stopped and was like "I don't even care. If they want to spend their life hunting me down and trying to make my life hell, let them." because it's HAPPINESS for me to know that I'm' not living for that, I'm BEYOND that, I'm ABOVE that. If you wanna hate on me, if you wanna try and waste your life hurting mine, BE MY GUEST. Because ten years from now, looking back I'M not gonna be the one going "Man! I wish I was doing something to better myself while I was trying to bring her down!" because you probably won't even HEAR about me anymore at that point. You will do NOTHING to me, and my life will turn out AMAZING and I will be HAPPY, and you'll be regretting it.

Last night I was in a funk, just for about 20 minutes. And I was just like "What if this doesn't work.. what if I'm alone forever. What if I become nothing." and I know that's not true. I live through GOD, in his light and in his path and he'd never let me be unhappy. And Im' not. And I have faith in that. And I am not afraid, whatsoever, of the future.

2007.. is just a chapter in the story of my life. A huge one of course, and one I'll never regret, and never forget.. but it's just a chapter. And later in life, I can read back on it.. and maybe a few people from that chapter will be with me to look back on it too. But until then I'm just taking it step by step, enjoying everything and every moment. Whether I'm "tweeting" it.. or not.

I am happy. I am dreaming. I am loving. I am in FAITH.

My smile might not come out in paparazzi shots. It might not be in gossip magazine pictures. It might not be in my "emo quotes", it might not be even behind closed doors... but my smile IS in my music. It's in my performance. It's in my PASSION, my DREAM, my LIFE. My love.

I'm not living for people, I'm not living for anyone but myself and GOD. And I love it.
I'm HAPPY.

And to a specific person, that probably will never read this, thank you. For making me who I am, for loving me, for making me smile when I didn't think I had it in me anymore. For making me love you. For making me believe in myself, and for making me believe I can do anything. And for always, ALWAYS, catching me when I fall. I love you.

Thank you to everyone for reading, and if you don't like this blog... suck it. =]

I'm going to bed SMILING tonight, and I hope you all do too.

Blessings,
Miley

How I feel right about now!

Okay so I'm gonna rant my butt off real fast, then you'll kinda get what's on my mind. As to the video, yes, it's all true and I'm pretty sure this twitter is going too. Like ya'll wrote me "Aww cute rap!" it's not cute. I wrote it that way for a reason. I love ya'll, no duh I'm not gonna sit there and be like "Okay guys this is court. Stay silent, and boring." no, I'm gonna mix it up cause I'm ME, but that's besides the point. I wanted to make it clear that in no way shape or form was I in anyway refering to my FANS messing things up. "Living for moments, not living for people." and the tabloids. What that means, is that I tweeted ENTIRELY too much. And every tweet I... well tweeted, became NEWS. I am SIXTEEN years old. And my twitter delete was on the news with someone BOMBING THE MOON! How is my deleting an ONLINE ACCOUNT, like I'm sure 16 year old girls do to some sites EVERY DAY, it was on the news with the scientists bombing the friggen moon. Now that should say ENOUGH that it was way over done. I'm tired of living for tabloids. THat's not YA'LL, that's ME. For a long time, not just this tour but even back before I met Justin or any of that happened, I was always doing things and ESPECIALLY once I joined twitter, I was living to make rumors seem happy. Going around and living to make rumors look LESS brutal. They're LIES.

I am SO tired of living that way and I'm not anymore. I decided today (AFTER the video was even UP actually. I was on stage basically the whole time it was in my head) that I AM gonna live for me now. I'm too tired, I'm sixteen years old and run into the GROUND. I had a complete break down today BEFORE my concert, I was crying, and screaming, and freaking out because I haven't missed home. Missed FRANKLIN. Nashville. My home has been LA. That's NOT my home. That's a city of lies, and deception. And it's my CAREER home. That's NOT my home. I broke down because it's like.. I have to be working to see my dad, I have to be on tour with my brother to see him, My Mom is my MANAGER. We don't live a normal life. OBviously. But me living the way I did, so obsessed with rumors it was insane. And again, my tweets shouldn't be NEWS.

I'm glad you all enjoyed the rap, I enjoyed making it but it had FEELING. Now even on THIS twitter I'm getting "WHY'D YOU DISS NICK JONAS?!" that was literally like 4 of my @replies yesterday. I have no idea HOW I "dissed" Nick. He's one of my best friends. He actually called me and got me THROUGH my "break down" today and was talking about when I FIRST came here. I didn't come here to be swarmed with cameras, and to have lies made up about me and to have people saying they HATE me when they don't even know me. That's a big thing too, Ya'll don't KNOW me. You know my tweets and yes they'er REAL, they're not some fake personality. It's me. But ya'll don't know ME personally and have NO right to make judgments on who I am. Just like I don't with YOU guys. My "JG" tweets was just a joke because like most teenage girls I was thinking back on relationships and like "Whatever I didn't NEED him." and honestly "that guy" DOES make me sick. Because of who he showed ME he was, and the person he ACTUALLY was. Ya'll don't know the story don't JUDGE it or tell me I have no RIGHT to say something. I have every right to say anything I feel the need to.

OH! A fun fact? I Broke my toe today!! Sorry completely off topic but I had to say it cause I just got a bad pain! IT's the toe RIGHT by my pinky toe and I think it got broken during a show BEFORE or something? It's literally HUGE though! Like anyone who went to the show and had to experience Bottom of the Ocean I'm sorry if one toe was like INSANELY huge and drew all of your attention away! Haha.

Okay, out of my funny moment. Umm.. not that my toe is a joking matter. It hurts folks... =]

Anywho! I'm just tired of living the way I was and YES that video was to Perez and all those other DUMB gossipers that are so STUPID they assume things and lie about lives as a LIVING. But it was also for me cause I haven't been living right, and I'm livnig for me now and RIGHT NOW I am honestly THE happiest I have EVER been.

I'm SO over boyfriend rumors. I have friends, and yeah, I MIGHT be with someone. But that's none of anyone's business but mine and theirs, and anyone wanna assume who it is go ahead. I honestly don't care anymore. But your NOT right just because some stupid site says so, or a couple pictures "look" like we're close. Or even anything I've said recently. You don't know. And I like it that way. My private life is private now. Of course right now I'm a LITTLE more blunt but taht's cause I'm still fired up from the show. And I WILL say personal things IF I keep smilesray_xo. I have a HEAVY heart that I won't. Because I'm SO over it for good reasons. But I don't know yet.

I'm just REALLY sorry and I'm done with rumors and CARING about them, if someone goes to a site and reads what they THINK is my life and assumes it's true, so be it. I don't care, cause I'm LIVING that life, and the decisions I make is what will affect MY life. Ten years from now I don't wanna look back and REGRET living a certain way cause I'm suppose to be a PARENT to every kid alive because THEIr parents decided to let their kids idolize a girl who puts on a blonde wig and is a rockstar. That's your decision but if parents are reading this I'd strongly recommend parenting classes and start doing your job, cause I'm out of my cage, and I DON'T care about rumors anymore. I'm gonna be me. Raw.

Don't like it? Deal.

Twitter.

So, I came online and had loads of mail asking about Twitter.  There is a bunch of reasons. I was talking with Liam and he basically made me realize that it's just causing more problems. I didn't delete it because of Liam or anything, Liam only suggested, and he was right. There are a bunch of reasons why I deleted. The main one is that it just causes drama. Everything I say gets put down and gossip sites twist it into something negative. I think sometimes people forget that I am human, a real human, and I have real feelings.  If I make a new Twitter I will let you guys know. Miley xoxo

Sick =[

So I got sushi today! With manderz. She's the light in these gloomy 4 days I've been unable to leave the bed! I finally went out and got some take-out sushi!

Sushi + the flu = NOT a pretty picture!

So my mommy got me these really weird shoes! Anyone following my twitter has seen em ha! They're insaaaane! So now I'm thinking of movies to watch or something. Mandy can't stay and catch a flu! Blah! But we did make a short video. Not sure if we'll put it up or not for MANY reasons but we'll see! :)

I am SO over being sick! I want it to go away. I've never ever been SO sick in my LIFE! I cancelled so many shows. Including one that a dear friend was going to. You don't know the ammount of sadness, guilt, and sorrow I feel about it. But I'll hit STL reaaallyy soon!

Sorry to anyone who missed a show I CANT wait to be healthy!!! I'm dying of boredom!!! HA!

Xo, MC

Hold your head high gorgeous...

So hold your head high gorgeous,
People would kill to see you fall,
In the dead of the night they can’t hear you screaming
You swear revenge, against them all.

So stay strong beautiful,
It won’t matter it they think less of you here,
But you cry by the window when wishes in moonlight don’t come true
Doesn’t mean you have to fear.

So never take the words he said to heart darling,
He has no idea what he meant,
To you it meant a life time,
To him, a lie worth less than a cent.

So don’t drown yourself in what you call medicine honey,
It will only do you harm,
because you never got drunk enough to get him off your mind.

So don’t believe you will never amount to anything sweetie,
You truly have no idea what your worth,
I see what you’re trying to hide from me,
I understand how much you’re hurt.

So don’t be afraid to crumble love,
Have you even forgotten who you are?
You walk around thinking you aren’t beautiful,
The truth could never have been more far...

So when you forget about him,
Don’t regret the pain you felt,
It’ll only make you better
And you’ll know how to play the hand you’re dealt.


So Hold you head high gorgeous,
Show the world your fine,
Don’t give in to the heartache,
Because People would kill to see you fall...

Introduction to this blog=]

So as you all know I am a HUGE mileyworld blogger. I vent there for almost all of my problems. Well of course I'm 16 years old and I'm going to need getting songs out, heartbreak venting, ect. I need a place to be myself where stupid blog sites won't find me. A place for myself, where the news won't read my words to the world. You might find it nice to see everything I do all over tv but quite frankly it isn't that great of a gig.

Love Always, MC